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An Appeal to the Discovery of Truth
(Return to Teachings) (By Sam)(ael)

(This section was Written by Sam)(ael during a discussion between some christian members of the RJK and his Padawan Maltiok when Maltiok decided to open an Academy teaching magic. Naturally there were good arguments on both sides and this subject could have turned into hot debate. There are many strong emotions at play in a discussion of this nature that involves topics both feared and misunderstoood. The following lesson teaches in a very refined nutshell what it is to discover truth from Sam)(ael's own experiences and in relation to this debate.)

I suppose I should at least state my beliefs since I am Maltiok's Master still and they might be helpful to both (or I should say, all) sides of the issue here.

I have been a christian pretty much from birth. I was born into it and then I went exploring for myself to make sure that what I already felt was right wasn't less than correct. I spent years and still do spend time looking into every other answer to life including no answer. I feel I was blessed to be born into the correct and true 'faith' right off.

Now that being said, I have ventured far in my search. I have at one point had a split personality disorder, I have loved and lost, I learned and mastered many forms of magic and reached deep into the occult in general looking for what I wanted. I organized and ran all kinds of operations and started doing this at the age of about eleven. I read scriptures daily and sometimes totally ignored them. I have sinned and feared for my soul and I have given compassionately of the last of my substance to others. This was in addition to possibly the most rigorous Training most force users will ever encounter under my original Master Orid.

I have learned a lot for myself and I WOULD NOT let other people's ideas of what is right stop me from discovering the truth of the matter. I would not sit outside while the matter was discussed and I would not just trust unless the person telling me these things was quite an amazing person. Even then, curiosity was fed in large doses.

I will admit that walking in darkness has been lonely and cruel to me, but I know for a fact what is right now and have for several years had an unfaultering knowledge and constant reassurances that it is indeed right. I found out for myself, and the more time I spent in the dark the more I realized what the light was worth and I made a clear choice for myself which I serve. There is no longer any neutral ground for me. I no longer have any doubts and I suppose if anyne can be considered 'good' I would be classed as one of their number without hesitation.

I chose to let magic go. But I suggest you all let Maltiok learn his own road and be examples of what you believe is right. Fir HIM to decide on. You can tell people the true meaning of life and they will argue till their faces turn blue, but if you sit next to them on the bus for a month and always tell the truth about why you are so happy, eventually they will beg you for the secret, and possibly treasure it up in their hearts for eternity.

I have been very guilty of the crime of just telling people the way it is and expecting them to conform. Its how I met my Padawan, with whom I am very pleased. But people WILL NOT be forced to change by words alone, no matter how true. Share what you have by friendship and a sincere appeal to their own happiness. With deep compassion for their current perdicament. For their cares and their worries.

That is all you can really do.